How American Are You?

You Are 32% American

America: You don't love it or want to leave it. But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over. On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead... And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch!

How American Are You?

Back to Life.. Back to Reality....

Ok, this is absurd. I know I'm a writer and all, but now I'm juggling this blog, my old livejournal blog, and now... my Yahoo 360 blog! STOP THE INSANITY!!!!

So much has been going on lately, I've neglected my writing.. but now, I can't do that any longer. In good news, I have 2 separate local libraries scheduling me for ghost programs in October: the 18th and 25th. The 2 hour lectures will be a lot of fun, and a chance to get out and meet new people for a change...and test my stage fright! They also told me that if I finish my ghost book by then, I can sell it there. So I've decided to buckle down and try my best to finish this long-forgotten project in a month and see if I can get somewhere with it. It's time to move on to better things...

And speaking of... most of you will be happy to know I finally cut all ties with the ex. I know.... waaay too friggin late!! It had to be done though. Even my mother told me it was definitely time. I spent too much time ignoring everyone I know, including the friends I hold near and dear. Most of you have heard this story before... but this time, you have my word on it. And if I even think about going back, I expect to be slapped hard in the face!

Work has been brutal, but I'm trying to not let it kill me. I have some saving to do for February (or March) of next year. I put off my vacation for too long (the last one was in 1999) and since my friends Bill and Shawn are taking time, I figure it's my turn too. So, I'm planning my trip to Sydney, Australia a decade after first saying I would take it. Life's too short not to just go for something sometimes. I have a million places I want to see in my life, so I better get started!!

No word yet about my screenplay, but I'm not rushing things. I have a full plate right now as it is!

Feed Me to the Lions

Well, I may have made the best move ever, or the biggest mistake in my short-lived writing career. I can't contain the nervous energy and regret, minced with worry and "stup, stupid, stupid" running over and over in my mind. "But it's too late, baby, now it's too late..."

Yes, I took the plunge, albeit possibly prematurely. My screenplay, "Afterglow", is right now in the hands of an employee of Lion's Gate Entertainment in California.

I started revisions after the fact, and didn't think the mutual friend would pass it along so fast. But he did. And now, I'm entering foreign territory and running with the big dogs before I'm officially paper trained.

I have a lot riding on this, btu still, tons of projects in my lap too.. so if I do fall flat on my face and become a laughing stock, I do have options to redeem myself. But when five or six figures are on the table, this is no time NOT to panic!!

Car 54, Where Are You???

Ok.. it's been too long, I know. But well, after everything, it's time for a major update.

Well, first, the good news: I finished the second draft of my screenplay, registered it with the WGA, and have a few more writing projects to work on now.

And now for something completely different...

Somehow, I doubt this will come as a shock to anyone who knows my ex. But he's gone over the deep end... literally. The past week, he's been acting strange. Not just a little odd, but "in desperate need of anger management" strange. He's been verbally abusive toward me at every chance, and tonight, he physically attacked his parents. So, what happened, you ask? He has some time to think. He's in jail until July 5th.

Hopefully, he'll get the mental help he desperately needs. Who knows what set him off, but the fact that every time something bad has come out of his mouth it's been under the influence of alcohol might have something to do with it.

I had my own run-in with him a week ago... well, his fist met my lip. The police were called then too, so he's in deep right now. I'm healed... outside. Inside, I'm just a jumble of anger, sadness, worry, and confusion. Well, that all boils down to apathy now. I want him to get the mental help he needs, but I'm worn out on caring. I've got my own life to worry about and get in order. He has to learn to do the same.

So, obviously, it's been an insane week. But I guess this means I have my free time back, finally....

A Writer Writes... Always

I've started reading another wonderful book today (though I still have 2 unfinished ones... I'm too far behind with everything!) I consider it a mild celebration for an end to my writer's block. The book is "Don't Get Too Comfortable" by David Rakoff. Though it's wonderful and hilarious to read, it depresses me just the same... and not because of the subject matter.

My obsession with the written English language leaves me feeling like a Neanderthal after reading other well-written books. Sure, I've come far from my elementary school years of "she went downstairs and saw a piano and got scared," but in the grand scheme of things, my writing feels just as bland to me. Although reading a thesaurus from front to back might help tremendously, I don't exactly have the patience and mindlessness to perform such a mundane task.

I'm such a peasant!!

But still, I feel quite confident today. I have a storyboard up finally, and that's the final step before writing a rough draft of "7 Valium" (my screenplay.) I see a few missing holes that need filling in before the story can be whole and run in a full circle, but I'm finally so close I can taste it. And yes, that means I'm one step closer to my vacation. Oddly enough, I have to thank my last boyfriend for this monumental achievement. If it hadn't been for my frustration with him and the moments of anxiety he caused lately, I wouldn't have had the dogged determination to write and block everything else out. LOL

I guess good things can come from bad...