Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Another "About Me" Questionnaire....

What is your full birth name?Kenneth Lee Summers, Jr.
What is your date of birth?April 15, 1979
Where were you born?Cleveland, Ohio
What are your parents' names?Catherine and Kenneth
How many siblings do you have? How old are they and what are their names?1, Sheila, 28
What's your hair color?brown
What's your eye color?hazel
How tall are you?6'1''
How much do you weigh?I'm afraid to know.. probably 245 Lbs.
What size shoe do you wear?10 1/2 wide
What's your house look like? How many bedrooms, bathrooms, etc.?picture tenement housing from the Great Depression...
How many pets do you have? What are they and what are their names?none
What's your marital status?in a committed repationship
Color?teal blue
Artist/ Group?Pet Shop Boys
Movie?Dolores Claiborne
Actor?Vincent Price
Actress?Kathy Bates
Drink?passionfruit juice
Restaurant?The Pufferbelly in Kent, Ohio
Car?1967 Austin Healey 3000 Mark III
School subject?English
Cologne/ perfume?Hugo Boss
Television show?Dead Zone
Television station?Discovery Channel
Radio station?98.1 WKDD
Vacation spot?Maine
Clothing store/ brand?Perry Ellis
McDonalds or Burger King?McDonalds
Pepsi or Coca-Cola?Coke
Cell phone or the Internet?Internet
Movies or television?movies
Board games or cards?board games
MTV or VH1?VH1
Horror or comedy?comedy
Summer or winter?summer
Dogs or cats?dogs
Appetizers or dessert?dessert
Concerts or gigs?gigs
Parties or get-togethers?parties
Chocolate or vanilla?chocolate
Beer, vodka, or wine?vodka
1970s or 1980s?1980s
Rain or snow?rain
Mario or Luigi?neither....
Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, or Jessica Simpson?Christina
Drunk or high?drunk
Day or night?night
Black or white?black
CDs or mixes?mixes
Corvette or Mustang?Mustang
Reality shows or sitcoms?sitcoms
Been high? How about any other drugs? Care to mention?sadly, yes... never enjoyed it... E once
Been drunk?many times
Stolen something? What was it?I'm not telling!
Gotten in a fist-fight?once... lost
Had sex? DUH! YES!
Vandalized someone's property?probably
Ran over an animal?yes
Wished death on someone?yes
Told your parents you hated them?no
Been fake to someone?yes
Flew on an airplane?yes
Broken a bone? If so, what was it?yes, tibia.. and walked on it for 3 days
Been in a car accident?yes
Do you find yourself attractive?not really
Are you a jealous person?too often, yes
What do you want to be when you get older? Dream job?film director
What's your cumulative grade point average?3.5
What's the meanest thing you've ever said to anyone?"I wish you had died"
Do you fart, burp, etc. in front of your friends? How about in front of anyone?not intentionally!
If you had to go on a reality show, what one would it be?they're all crap...
Who are your top 3 male and top 3 female friends?Ryan, Jeremy, Bill / Diana, Missy, Colleen
Do you have any tattoos or piercings? How many and where?pierced left ear
Do you like drama?noooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What do you think is your best feature - physical & personality?my heart
Would you change for someone you liked?yes
Would you rather be physically or mentally hurt?physically... it heals easier
What do you appreciate most in life?second chances


Monday, August 15, 2005

Silence of the Lamps

Today, shopping for accessories for my boyfriend's bedroom with him and his best friend, I had the most awful realization: his best friend annoys the living piss out of me. No, it's not jealousy over him, or fear of losing my boyfriend to an ex, or even feeling left out. He's just damned irritating so much of the time to me.

Our little shopping spree for Roman shades turned into the two of them acting like two queens in a beauty salon picking out sheet sets. Um, hello. This is the bedroom my boyfriend and I sleep in. Shouldn't what goes into it be our decision and not someone else's? And as my boyfriend and I were browsing the home decor sections of Target, I hear "Okay, girls, let's go" echoing through the fluorescent white aisles. Yes, mother, coming right away. I forgot we weren't doing this as a fun night out. We were doing this on his time. He had better things to do, like order porn comic books and dye my boyfriend's hair for the hundredth time. Honestly, the compassion was overflowing.

And to think my boyfriend/future husband has no idea why I don't like spending time with the two of them. Don't get me wrong, Nick's a nice guy and fun to hang out with... Maybe at a bar. But most humans have a built in intuition to know when their thoughts and opinions aren't asked for.

This was only a minor addition to the irritation after waiting for 2 hours to pick up some medicine for my boyfriend, followed by waiting for his best friend to pick out clothing for himself. Oh, yes darling, my life revolves around making sure you look so good for this weekend when we go out to a club and you, once again, give head to some unknown stranger in the parking lot of a bar.

And they say chivalry is dead.

This is why I keep stressing the need for us to break new ground and make new friends. Friends who aren't all about clubbing and partying and drinking til you puke, like his entourage generally seems to be. He fails to notice so many things about them: the fact that they find humor in getting him completely fucked up so they get a good laugh, the using and borrowing indefinitely, the lack of care for his well-being. No, I don't hate his friends. I enjoy them, in small doses and at the right times. But they need to know when to say "no, I shouldn't just stop by unexpectedly. You two should have some time to yourself. I have a life outside of you and should give that equal time."

I do have faith in us finding those people. I already have some very good friends, single and couples, who are genuinely a pleasure to be around, and even the ones I rarely ever get to see or talk to are just as profoundly wonderful. I learned from my good friend Tommy years ago to "cut away the dead wood". If someone isn't a true friend, good-hearted and true to themselves, I drop them like a bad habit. Those people know who they are, because I'm utterly unreachable to them. I don't believe in hatred. It's too strong of a negative emotion. My best defense against tyranny and stupidity is simply not caring. My heart is my strongest asset and I use it to it's fullest power. After all, without love and good friends, what do we really have worth living for?

Monday, August 8, 2005

Beyond Issues and Subscriptions

What a weekend....

Well, I hardly accomplished anything so the painting might be delayed slightly beyond this next weekend. We spelt in too late and went out too late saturday night. It was an embarrassing night for both of us, and I don't think I want to go to Akron for a while!! We both drank way too much and started arguing over who knows what, making a big scene in a very prominent club which shall remain nameless to avoid dramatic rumors from spreading. My head still hurts... (we accidentally butted heads hard when i was going to stand up as he bent down to talk to me. Ouch.)

My boyfriend's friend told us something Sunday that we both realize: we're both so insecure that going out to a club together tends to make each of us overreact and think we're going to lose the other to someone better. It's almost comical at times. We really need to sit down and lay all our issues out on the table to realize how silly we're both being.

In other news, I have big plans for the coming year, and since Ryan never reads this, I can actually say what they are!! hehe We're quickly approaching the one year mark... it's hard to believe we've been together for 9 months now. But I don't want to jump the gun so soon, which is why I'm waiting until the 1 1/2 year point to pop the question.

Yes. THAT one.

I already know what most people I know will say. Way too soon. But when you're sure, why wait 5 years? No, I don't plan on eloping. I figure a year or so being engaged isn't absurd. I've been engaged before in relationships that have only lasted 6 months. Ok, so I was young and foolish.. shoot me! I'm already planning out how I'll go about doing it.... on a trip for two to Prince Edward Island. Maybe at Green Gables. We both loved the books and television series and have been dying to go, so why not?

I'm going to take my time on this though. Usually, when I start planning far ahead is when things mess up, so I don't want to jinx myself. I know I've been neglecting friends a lot lately because of all this, but we had a lot of issues to work out, plus the room redo has been taking lots of money and time. It'll all be over within a week though. The painting will be done soon, furniture and bedding will be a slow process as well. But this is a big step for us. Doing a major project together for us... to make our own space that is unique to us. It'll be a bonding experience if he doesn't kill himself moving furniture by himself, the silly boy.

Well, time to recouperate from work. And tomorrow, there's sanding waiting for us...