I know I haven't written in a long time. So sue me. I haven't been online too much!But I figured I'd start a running commentary again... since our "Fearless Leader" has given me some material to work with. So, to sum up his address...
"Blah, blah, blah" (remember, Georgie, articulate!)....Honestly, I think my brain fell asleep after the first few sentences. Beating around the bush (no pun intended) tends to exhaust my mind like that. The war is getting somewhere... then we'll leave, when they say we can.. "no politicians in Washington" should decide what to do with the war. Oh? That's news to me...
I found his talk of AIDS fascinating though, as if he's been flying Air Force One around, handing out medications in his spare time. "Partner for a better life"? We don't allow gay marriage and 6 other countries do. But wait... gay marriage means our culture is "in decline?" But that's ok... we have Intelligent Design to help us solve our moral dilemnas...
"America rejects... isolationism." Right. It shows.
Ok, he gave me a headache. Time to sleep and try to recover my sanity....
Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
'Tis the Season to Be Bitchy...
So it's been a little while since I've updated. What do you expect? It's the holiday season. (For those offended by my lack of the use of "Christmas", you need to reevaluate your priorities in life.)
Even though I'm looking forward to presents, fireside cuddling, and honey-baked ham, I'll be glad when life goes back to normal. Between the extra work hours and sleepless nights, I've been on my last nerve for a few weeks now. Overtime is now mandatory, and as people get irritated and quit, we have to take up the slack... and not get anything to show for it. All I want is to be able to relax and enjpy the holidays for the first time in nearly 4 years... but is that a possibility? No.
And that's not the worst part. My boyfriend and I have been at eachother's throats. Between caring for his sick mother, me taking work home with me, and both of us aggrivated by the lack of time spent together (usually 3 hours twice a week... maybe a whole 24 hours on the weekend), our stress levels are through the roof-and every small thing turns into a quarrel. We have some good moments, but it's been a rough haul.
I'm barely finished with my shopping, haven't even started baking, and am too tired to bother getting things I've been neglecting finished. Hopefully things will calm down... and I'll buy myself a camcorder... so I can begin to enjoy life again after the 26th.
Even though I'm looking forward to presents, fireside cuddling, and honey-baked ham, I'll be glad when life goes back to normal. Between the extra work hours and sleepless nights, I've been on my last nerve for a few weeks now. Overtime is now mandatory, and as people get irritated and quit, we have to take up the slack... and not get anything to show for it. All I want is to be able to relax and enjpy the holidays for the first time in nearly 4 years... but is that a possibility? No.
And that's not the worst part. My boyfriend and I have been at eachother's throats. Between caring for his sick mother, me taking work home with me, and both of us aggrivated by the lack of time spent together (usually 3 hours twice a week... maybe a whole 24 hours on the weekend), our stress levels are through the roof-and every small thing turns into a quarrel. We have some good moments, but it's been a rough haul.
I'm barely finished with my shopping, haven't even started baking, and am too tired to bother getting things I've been neglecting finished. Hopefully things will calm down... and I'll buy myself a camcorder... so I can begin to enjoy life again after the 26th.
Wednesday, November 2, 2005
Blah, Blah, Blah
Ok. I think we all know someone like this. The friend who's so wrapped up in thoughts of a man they want that that's all they talk about or think about. I have my own nightmare.. I mean friend... like this.
Having a crush is fine. Being in love is fine. But be IN the relationship or just fantasize. He's insanely in love with someone he dated for a month about a year ago and has been talking to maybe a couple times a week. Absurd? I think so. Crazy? You bet your ass...
What's most frustrating is all he'll listen to is words of encouragement or false hopes. He's so blinded that anything resembling the truth is grounds for dismissal. I don't mind friends talking about someone, justkeep it within the bounds of reality and not some pipe dream.
Other than that, I'm working on catching up on sleep. Stress is dissipating somewhat, and I do miss having a social life instead of the hermit-like existance I've been leading. I'm hoping to make plans near the weekend with some friends, since it's been an eternity since my last "usual friday night" and I have to set aside time for the husband too. He's going nuts with his mother being ill and running him ragged so he's been on edge lately. Of course, going through withdrawal isn't helping that. He can't hide behind a joint or bottle anymore so that makes him 10 times more bitchy when he feels backed into a corner.
Isn't a good dose of reality grand? LOL
Having a crush is fine. Being in love is fine. But be IN the relationship or just fantasize. He's insanely in love with someone he dated for a month about a year ago and has been talking to maybe a couple times a week. Absurd? I think so. Crazy? You bet your ass...
What's most frustrating is all he'll listen to is words of encouragement or false hopes. He's so blinded that anything resembling the truth is grounds for dismissal. I don't mind friends talking about someone, justkeep it within the bounds of reality and not some pipe dream.
Other than that, I'm working on catching up on sleep. Stress is dissipating somewhat, and I do miss having a social life instead of the hermit-like existance I've been leading. I'm hoping to make plans near the weekend with some friends, since it's been an eternity since my last "usual friday night" and I have to set aside time for the husband too. He's going nuts with his mother being ill and running him ragged so he's been on edge lately. Of course, going through withdrawal isn't helping that. He can't hide behind a joint or bottle anymore so that makes him 10 times more bitchy when he feels backed into a corner.
Isn't a good dose of reality grand? LOL
Saturday, October 29, 2005
History Will Teach Us Nothing
Ok, so I haven't been posting on this lately. Sue me.
The more things change, the more they stay the same. Not much is new here. My boyfriend swore off drinking, and aside from a couple slip-ups, he's been sticking to it. We've both been stressed lately so it's been a rough haul. Certain not-so-good people are out of the picture now, and I'm glad. Even though some certain emails have had the mark of the beast on them, I'm letting the drama some people are trying to circulate die in its origins. If people try to make my life miserable, they won't succeed.
I've started writing a bit again, which is a welcomed change. I've been away from it for too long. Lately, I've been neglecting too many things in the attempt to make everyone happy. And, of course, my own happiness has suffered from it. Though I'd like everything to be perfect, I know that won't happen all the time.
There have been some rough times and hurt feelings lately, and not all of it has been intentional. I feel sometimes like some people have a problem with my boyfriend because of the past, but none of us are perfect. He's done a lot wrong and made a lot of mistakes, but he's working on changing his life for the better. I just wish the past would stay there, but the past is an inescapable horror sometimes that we're all doomed to have hanging over us. All we can do is press onward and hope for the best.
In three weeks, my boyfriend and I will be celebrating our one year anniversary. Hopefully it will be a good one. I'm hoping to figure out something special for that day involving our friends, as well as some alone time for us. It's been a rough year, but we've survived it all. I do believe there's cause to celebrate. And yes, it seems as though lately we've been inseparable. In many ways, we have become a united front. I do still enjoy my time to myself, but we both feel like we don't get to spend enough time together still. That may not always be something people are happy with, but when you have no social life, you don't want to be social while the husband sits at home staring at a wall. Neither of us are happy being left out.
The more things change, the more they stay the same. Not much is new here. My boyfriend swore off drinking, and aside from a couple slip-ups, he's been sticking to it. We've both been stressed lately so it's been a rough haul. Certain not-so-good people are out of the picture now, and I'm glad. Even though some certain emails have had the mark of the beast on them, I'm letting the drama some people are trying to circulate die in its origins. If people try to make my life miserable, they won't succeed.
I've started writing a bit again, which is a welcomed change. I've been away from it for too long. Lately, I've been neglecting too many things in the attempt to make everyone happy. And, of course, my own happiness has suffered from it. Though I'd like everything to be perfect, I know that won't happen all the time.
There have been some rough times and hurt feelings lately, and not all of it has been intentional. I feel sometimes like some people have a problem with my boyfriend because of the past, but none of us are perfect. He's done a lot wrong and made a lot of mistakes, but he's working on changing his life for the better. I just wish the past would stay there, but the past is an inescapable horror sometimes that we're all doomed to have hanging over us. All we can do is press onward and hope for the best.
In three weeks, my boyfriend and I will be celebrating our one year anniversary. Hopefully it will be a good one. I'm hoping to figure out something special for that day involving our friends, as well as some alone time for us. It's been a rough year, but we've survived it all. I do believe there's cause to celebrate. And yes, it seems as though lately we've been inseparable. In many ways, we have become a united front. I do still enjoy my time to myself, but we both feel like we don't get to spend enough time together still. That may not always be something people are happy with, but when you have no social life, you don't want to be social while the husband sits at home staring at a wall. Neither of us are happy being left out.
Wednesday, October 5, 2005
Feeling the Itch
Another long week has come and gone... or has it?
The past weekend was a doozie. The boyfriend's been a big ball of stress, not sure what to do, feeling trapped, feeling the weight of the world on him, and losing it at every turn. It's been a challenge to stand beside him through it all, but I know he needs the support. Sunday, I noticed a few pimples forming, and thought the stress was finally taking its toll on my body.
Monday morning, pimples were forming all over my forehead. That night, I felt feverish and had trouble sleeping. By tuesday,my face was covered with red bumps. Would it ever end?? I thought I was turning into a pubescent child again. My boyfriend swore it must be an allergic reaction, since they weren't coming to a head. Last night was rough and the worrying set in for me. I finally decided to call off work to go to the doctors today.
I sat and waited in the office, now expecting the worst. I had already diagnosed myself in my mind, and my nightmare was true: it wasn't pimples, it was chicken pox. I was shown around like a lab rat to a med student, since pox are as rare as polio anymore with all the vaccines out there. Then, after being lead out the emergency exit to avoid exposing anyone in the waiting area, headed over to get my meds. Five days of pills and no contact with anyone until it dries up. I'm determined to be better by the weekend if it kills me, so we'll have to see how that goes. The itching is driving me insane and I hope I have a chance to see the boyfriend this weekend. I'll have to play that by ear...
I know i said I needed a vacation, but this isn't what I meant!!!
"God always has another cream pie up his sleeve."
- 'Georgie Girl'
The past weekend was a doozie. The boyfriend's been a big ball of stress, not sure what to do, feeling trapped, feeling the weight of the world on him, and losing it at every turn. It's been a challenge to stand beside him through it all, but I know he needs the support. Sunday, I noticed a few pimples forming, and thought the stress was finally taking its toll on my body.
Monday morning, pimples were forming all over my forehead. That night, I felt feverish and had trouble sleeping. By tuesday,my face was covered with red bumps. Would it ever end?? I thought I was turning into a pubescent child again. My boyfriend swore it must be an allergic reaction, since they weren't coming to a head. Last night was rough and the worrying set in for me. I finally decided to call off work to go to the doctors today.
I sat and waited in the office, now expecting the worst. I had already diagnosed myself in my mind, and my nightmare was true: it wasn't pimples, it was chicken pox. I was shown around like a lab rat to a med student, since pox are as rare as polio anymore with all the vaccines out there. Then, after being lead out the emergency exit to avoid exposing anyone in the waiting area, headed over to get my meds. Five days of pills and no contact with anyone until it dries up. I'm determined to be better by the weekend if it kills me, so we'll have to see how that goes. The itching is driving me insane and I hope I have a chance to see the boyfriend this weekend. I'll have to play that by ear...
I know i said I needed a vacation, but this isn't what I meant!!!
"God always has another cream pie up his sleeve."
- 'Georgie Girl'
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