Thursday, April 13, 2006

I Don't Have to Be Me 'Til Monday

Finally.. a much-needed 3 day weekend! And the weather couldn't be better! Prime time for construction workers to be baring their tanned and sunburnt brawn. Oh, how I missed summer. LOL

Even though I'm a bit tired from work (a very short day, thankfully), I'm still feeling completely happy. Honestly, haven't felt this wonderful in a very, very, VERY long time. I have to thank my Aussie friend for that. He had to limit his emails to once a week so he could concentrate on everything else in his life... you could say he's become a bit obsessed, but in a good way. lol As if he's the only one! LOL When I go from casually joking about leaving the country to planning out a strategy for moving permanently to Oz, you know there's more to it than just a "phase." It's funny how logic and rational thought fly ot the window sometimes in matters of the heart.. and how you can care so much for someone after a few months and feel so utterly and completely connected to someone that the words "soul mate" run over and over in your head at a dizzying speed. But even in perfect situations, nothing's ever perfect! LOL After all, in a perfect world, we would both be single and wealthy enough to just jump on a plane and see each other. LOL But what's life without a few dreams??

Only 1 1/2 days left until I turn "another year older and deeper in debt." LOL And I never thought I'd say this, but I'm happy about it! I know some of my friends are going to read this and think "who are you and what have you done with Ken!?" because I'm not usually this cheerful all the time. It's amazing how one close friendship can change your life.

Unfortunately, though, I need to find my own balance though. I haven't touched a screenplay in over a month and that's my ticket to a vacation Down Under. Perhaps I too need to take my head out of the coulds for a minute and come back to reality and hit the books, so to speak. I have to make a living somehow, and spending day after day toiling in a warehouse wearing myself out for an income that still puts me below the poverty line isn't going to do that! One screenplay would pay me at least as much as I would make in 5 years at the warehouse. How sad is that? LOL

What? Me, obsessive? Never! Just because my Aussie friend has (or merely appears to have) more self-control than I do doesn't mean I'm obsessed. Hmm?? Denial? Isn't that a river in Egypt? LOL

On a side note too... I've decided to make a change in my life starting after by birthday. Yes, you're all heard it before... I'm quitting smoking. AGAIN. lol But hopefully for good this time. Since I plan on having some drinks on my birthday, I won't say I won't smoke that day. I know alcohol and ciggies go hand-in-hand. I need to find something else to relieve nervous tension that builds up in me. Something constructive instead of fatal. Even if it's chewing on pencils, it'd be a better choice. A new year of my life is dawning.. and it looks as if it's going to e the most wild, interesting, and adventurous one as of yet!

1 comment:

sid said...

you go boy!!!!!